Love is like a brick - you can build a house or sink a dead body.

Long time no post! 

Seems like it's going to be tradition that I update my blog when I'm at work. Again I'm in nightshift and now I have good time to write. 

I bet you want to know about that interview? Well, I haven't gotten any information yet. 2 weeks ago they said they can't promise to anyone yet, mostly because they don't know how many people they can take there for summer. 

Anyways, I have those family courses in August, September and December - at least. And my boss said that I should let her know when I'm available again! She said they need workers in here too. I have only 7 shifts left in here for now. It was my decision so I'm happy with it. Somehow I'm going to miss this place and these people. Not all of them, but most. 

On thursday I'm going to Kokkola. Going to visit my friend and be there rest of the week. We're going to see Poisonblack on Friday :) After that I'm going to do few shifts and go to Lahti with my grandmother. We're going to be there almost 2 weeks. In June, I'm not going to be at home that much. 2nd of June we're heading to Helsinki! Going to Amoral show and Private Line show in that weekend :D So excited! And of course, our London-Hamburg-Berlin trip is in June. Meeting friends and have good time. Can't wait!

So many good things to come! Trips, new Gaga album, new Amoral album... So hyped because all of that. 

I have so much new music too! Natalia Kills' "Perfection" is amazing piece of art. Even more amazing that I expected. Also I finally fell in love with Sara properly. I always liked them but when I saw their show it made me buy their albums and listen them more. So did The Man-Eating Tree show. Those people are just so professional. They don't have to think what they do, they just do it. It's in their spine. New "Judas" single by Gaga is awesome too. First I was so confused and didn't get it after first listening. Now when I have listened it several times, it's opening to me. 

I don't even know what I should write. This post might be the most confusing ever. Sorry about that. So many things I'm excited about. I think it's better to stop before this gets too messy. Hahaha

Love, 

- Tekni -

Train updating.

Beautiful weather outside and I'm sitting in the train. I'm heading to Helsinki. Remember those job applications I told you about my last post? One company contacted me and offered interview. Now I'm going to Helsinki and I have job interview tomorrow morning, 9am. I'm so nervous! I'm excited and I can't wait, but still I feel little anxious for it. I haven't been on proper interview before and it's group interview. I don't know what kind of situations those are. Some people say they are easier and fun, but some people say they're horrible. We'll see! Cross your fingers!
Bad news is that family course in June, in Ylläs is cancelled. So I think my whole June is free. They want me to every course in this year but I can't go if I get this job in Helsinki. I'm going to happy, no matter how this goes :D

I'm super tired and I think I'm taking little nap before I'm in Helsinki. Listening good music and so on :D I've got 3 new good albums in 3 weeks now, Mohombi, Children Of Bodom and Samuli Putro.
That reminds me, you all, go buy Mohombi's new album 'MoveMeant'! It's awesome. So is Samuli Putro's "Älä sammu aurinko", I got it yesterday and it's so good. Putro can't do anything badly. I think I don't even need to say how much I like Children Of Bodom's album. Next week Matthau Mikojan's new album will be released, can't wait!

Naaah, I don't know what to say anymore. I'm going to tell you when I know how tomorrow's interview went!

Up All Night!

Someone just killed Gerard Way! Nooooooooooo. ..in their music video. I'm at work, watching music channels and My Chemical Romance's Sing is on right now. Great song, great band.

Yes, I got real things to tell you also. Like I said, I'm at work. Nightshift like last time I updated my blog :) It's already 5:10am and this night has gone so fast. I've been writing, filling and sending job applications. I sent 2 this night. Both jobs are in Helsinki. I really did that. I thought I wouldn't dare to do it. Now I can't regret not sending them. Now it's all about them and are they're going to contact me. Living in Helsinki makes me feel little nervous, even anxious but same time I feel proud. I'm proud of myself. I never thought I would even try to get a job from Helsinki. I won't be sad if I don't get a job, at least I tried.
I don't know what I'm going to do if I would get a job. I'm going there of course but that sound so weird. I can't even think that far. It doesn't even feel like real.

Luckily seems like I have work here until middle of May, maybe until end of May. In June I'm going to look after kids for a week to that family course like before. And then, we're going to Germany! At least that's the plan, I hope it's going to happen :) My life has pretty much planned until end of June (and maybe July-August too). Or should I say my work part has planned, not other parts.

It's March already. Spring is coming. Time goes so fast! Gosh! I don't even know what to say anymore. Maybe I stop this already. I'll be back again :) I hope soon with news!

Love,
Tekni

Song For The Stubborn.

Hey everyone.

I almost forgot I got this blog here. I'm so sorry I haven't been writing here for ages. Now I'm at work (nightshift) so I have time to write something for you. I promise I'm gonna try to update this more. Work takes too much time.

So much has been happened after my last blog text.

First of all, I got a job. I started beginning of August and I'm still working at same place. This job is great. There's no nothing sure about work and is there work in future or no, but to me it's okay. I don't want permanent job. If I had one, I would feel like I'm chained in this little shitty town which I'm living now. I'm not gonna stay here forever. I wanna see the world and I wanna get as much different kinda work experience as I can.

I was planning to send some job applications to Helsinki for summer. There's awesome opportunities and I'm very interested of those places. All of them are jobs with people who has mental health problems or problems with drug etc. Those places are my area, for that kinda places I specialized.

But in the other hand, I'm not sure if I'm going. I feel like I want to go but I'm little scared to go there. Yes, I know, it's only 1-3 months but still. To me it's hard to leave. I know there's work for me in here (if I don't screw this totally) but somehow I want to get somewhere else.


Okay, that's all about that.

Next thing. Some music.
I've found new bands. Or one specific band has made me fall in love. About 2 weeks after I blogged last time, I was almost dragged to see Amoral. Well, it was good thing, I'm still in that road. I've seen them 4 times in 6 months. 2 times of them in Helsinki. I travelled all the way to Helsinki 2 weeks ago to see them. It was crazy but so worth it. Those guys are just awesome. So nice and.. yeah.
I saw Lady Gaga about 3,5 months ago. It was amazing. Can't find the word good enough to describe it. Semi Precious Weapons was pure awesomeness too. And Kelis.
In New Year, it was goodbye show for Reflexion. They're having a break. No one doesn't know if they're coming back. Even they don't know that. I lost one of biggest bands in my life. I cried so hard. And that show was recorded so we'll wait for DVD right now. AND I finally took first pic ever with someone. This is the place I would love to stay forever : http://twitpic.com/3mgorl
I started to play guitar again. I bought new acoustic guitar as christmas present to myself. You can see my beauty here : http://twitpic.com/3hunhy She needs a name so let me know if you have some in your mind.

I'm planning to go to Germany next summer. I was there last summer and I fell in love. And I planned maybe I visit in England too. Not sure about that yet. I should visit in Slovenia too, but I think it's not gonna happen next summer :(

What else? My sister is growing fast! She's walking and learning new things everyday. She's pretty adorable.
Okay, now I'm gonna take my eating break.


Love,
Tekni

Fool

Hey everyone!

Now I finally came to tell something about me.

My name is Heli, I’m 20 years old atm, I live in Finland. I love music, my friends, writing, concerts and stuff like that. Someday I wanna move to Germany. I visited there and I fell in love. “Home is where your heart is”, I think I left at least half of my heart in Germany. I like to live in here too, but I would love to live in there too. That’s different kinda love. It’s hard to explain.

I have little sister who is only 7,5 months old now. She’s so adorable! I have other little sister too, she would be almost 11 years old if she would be still alive. At the moment I live with my family at my childhood home. I graduated as practical nurse on 5th of June. Next thing to me is find a job. I would love to continue this summer holiday ‘til the end but I can’t. Shame.

What kinda music I like? Well, I listen almost all kinda music actually! My fave #1 is Negative. Has been last 7 years and it’s not gonna change! :D I also love Cinema Bizarre, Lady Gaga, Stalingrad Cowgirls, Tokio Hotel, Puppetz, Uniklubi and many many other bands and artists! Concerts are my obsession too. I’ve seen Negative 23 times, in this year 5 times actually :D I’m gonna see them at least 2 times in this year. AND I’m going to Lady Gaga’s concert on October! Can’t wait!

I write mostly fanfiction. I write other things too, like lyrics. I would love to write more if I had time enough. You can find my stories (hopefully) soon on internet. There’s finnish ones but English ones are coming!

What else? This is kinda hard ‘cos I don’t know what you all wanna know XD I’m gonna tell you something about my trip to Germany someday! I need to check all the photos and stuff before that :) I’m gonna tell you about my weekend too! It was SImerock weekend now and I just got home. Just uploading the video to YouTube from yesterday. Stalingrad Cowgirls are playing Bad Romance! You can’t miss that! Gonna link you ;D

Ask if there’s something you wanna know :)

You can find me on Twitter, Formspring, Last.fm, Cherrytree and Facebook :) 

Much love,

~ Tekni ~

Hallo!

Hallo everyone!

I'm here, now in english :) Feel free to read my blog and comment it!
Try to understand me. I'm gonna be random. Sorry about my bad english already. Sometimes it's not so easy to write in english. Especially some things are difficult to explain because english isn't my native language.

I'm gonna tell you something about myself soon. I think I don't have enough time now so I think it's better to do it when I really have time so I won't forget something important. Maybe later today.

Enjoy my randomness.

Love,
~ Tekni ~